Tubes

So, Kameryn goes in for "surgery" tomorrow morning to get tubes in her ears. I would be lying if I didn't say I was the little bit scared. (Actually, I'm terrified.) I know it is not a major surgery, but you can't tell me there is no risk. There is a risk with every surgery. And I have a vivd enough imagination to be freaking myself out. Although, in all reality, the only risks with this procedure would be so bizarly unreal...
She is going under anesthesia and that's the part that has me worried. But it should be pretty quick. She is expected to be dizzy and angry. I hope that is all.
Kami's had bad ear infections for a while now. We found out a week or so ago that she practically has solid muck behind her ear drums that don't allow them to move freely as they should. So when they put the tubes in, all the muck should just ooze out. We have been told that tubes should not only help her ear infections, but it could help in areas such as sleep and speech.
Anyway, we go first thing in the morning, the procedures should take no more than an hour and a half. That's going to be a long time for me. I just can't wait to get it over with. I tell you what, if I ever have a child that has to have major surgery or hospital admittance, I think I will pretty much die. Too hard, much too hard.
But, as if this blog isn't long enough, parenting gives one a small glance at the unwavering and eternal love, concern, and forgiveness our Father in Heaven has for us. If I can love my children this much, think of them this much, and pretty much live and breathe for them and their companionship, how much does this teach me of my Heavenly Father's feeling for me. It definetly makes His love for me easier to understand and believe in, even when I mess up. It also makes me think more about my effort to form a relationship with Him.
He speaks of waiting at the door for you to let Him in. He also speaks of essentially standing with arms wide open to recieve us. I understand that feeling. My children are not away from home, but I can imagine the anticipation I would have to see them, be with them, comfort them, and guide them. He is my father and I am His daughter. That relationship speaks volumes and you don't quite understand that until you have your own children and can experience that relationship from a parential side.