Journaling

I don't know if you mothers ever find yourselves doing this, but it happens to me all the time. You look down at your children and for no particular reason you find yourself so in love with them you could burst. This happened to me tonight; I glanced down at my kids and thought "Man I love you guys!" It is not that they did anything particularly cute or endearing - they are just themselves; going about life doing the things they do. (I do admit, I have extremely, if not unnaturally, cute and endearing children. Maybe that is why this happens to me so often...)
This is one of the things I love so much about being a mother. The love never stops, it just keeps growing. It is often puzzling. I am not puzzled by why I love my children, there are millions of obvious reasons. I am puzzled by the amount and intensity of the love I feel for them. Honestly, motherhood is the greatest gift I have EVER been given. It is a blessing and I find more joy in it than in anything else I do, or anything else I am. I wouldn't give it up for anything.
I wanted to share a couple "updates" for our family. (I am using this post as a journal of sorts, so if you don't want to know, just skip)
We'll start with the youngest: This little one inside me. He still doesn't have a name, which concerns and bewilders me. My other two were named before conception. This one is well past that point and still lacking an identity. He is a mover and shaker, constantly kicking, rolling, hiccuping, you name it. I don't remember my other two being nearly this active. I like him though, think I'll keep him. I definitely starting to show A LOT. There is no doubt that I am pregnant. He is growing big and strong, due date right on target and everything running smoothly, if not a little fast, it seems. The months are skipping by.
Cooper is more than adorable. He has an attitude that he mimics from his older sister. He absolutely loves music and dancing and anything that makes an insanely more than reasonable amount of noise. He is really into the dishwasher right now, especially the silverware tray. He thinks he is such a big help. He is especially drawn to knives...fun! Cooper is my randomly affectionate one. For no apparent reason he will walk right up to you wrap his arms around you and give you a kiss. He likes to climb up on you when your sitting in the recliner just to give you a hug and a kiss and then he climbs back down. Randomly, blissfully, affectionate. Cooper is still our people person. At church he hops from person to person, dishing out his characteristic koala hugs. He is a man's man. The young men absolutely love him and he loves them, he always has to go everywhere they go. I think it is because he is usually surrounded by women. (that of course is all about to change) Last, but not least, Cooper loves his sister. He loves to do everything she does. They are the best of buds.
Kameryn is going through a rough discipline phase right now, we don't exactly know how to take care of her tantrums and spitting. But, despite the bumps we can't get enough of her. She is so delightful. Kami loves cartoons and computer games. She also loves to help me cook. She is becoming quite the little chef and probably knows how to make more than a lot of college students. She loves to mimic me, everything from having owies like mommy, to a baby in her tummy. She likes to pretend she teaches piano lessons, which is actually quite cute to watch. She loves to be a mommy to Cooper, Lulu and every stuffed thing we own. Kami is still big into playing puppy, which drives her dad insane, but she is very good at it. She loves to go out with her dad and knows so many things it astounds me. She is an incredible help when she wants to be and she is such a sweet and loving little girl. She still prefers being alone to being in big groups, and scowls as opposed to smiles at most people. She is growing so tall. Most people think she is a year or two older than she really is because of how tall she is. Kami still loves music and art. She loves to turn the music on my piano up the blaring levels, dance to it, and then leave the room. Overall, Kami is a very sweet, loving, and smart little girl.
Next it brings us to me, mine won't be as long, more a medical update than anything else. I just had a Dr.'s appt. where I found out that the pain and bleeding I am experiencing are normal, for a stint. I also found out that instead of having the stint replaced the end of January, I have to have it replaced the beginning/middle of December to avoid a more serious surgery. Not fun, but better than the alternative. I have passed 2 kidney stones (GO ME!!! Honestly, the awesomest thing ever) We aren't sure how many I still have left to go, but we know it is at least 1. I am still on serious pain killers, but the dosage has dwindled down. I feel guilty about still needing them, but unfortunately they are necessary if I want to be able to function. My Dr. also feels that they are a necessity, and you know my husband feels the same way. Baby is still due middle of February and I don't have to be induced. (Which I am truly excited about)
Brandon's schedule has wound down, but they are making some changes to contracting beets and so it is about to pick up again. He just had a root canal, which left him in a little discomfort, but after his dentist appointment here in a week he hopefully won't have to go back for a while.
This post is REALLY long so we are going to stop. Sorry for the journal excerpt. It will come in handy for me later.