I have a lot to post.
A lot to remember.
Best to undertake it one small bit at a time.
Milestones make me sick to my stomach. Which is probably why I am terrible about blogging them: Birthdays, Christmas, holidays, big time events most likely only to happen once in a lifetime... you will be hard pressed to find many of those documented on my blog. The sheer stress and importance of "these will never come again" makes me want for words and more importantly struggle against feelings of inadequacy and regret. Not to mention the fact that I hate, HATE, the fact that, without my permission, my children continue to grow older and farther away from this stage of life with every passing day.
No such milestone of this magnitude has happened in our lives as parents before. And, as it always goes, looking back you find you would have done a million things differently... but that ship has sailed and the ship of regret has docked in harbor. (I wax poetic don't I? I've been sick so I've been reading a lot. My manner of speaking has adjusted for the time being. apologies.)
I'm talking, of course, of Kameryn's baptism and confirmation as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Now, make no mistake, her baptism I do not regret, not in the least. However, I strongly regret the amount of thought and importance I put into things which, looking back, offer no amount of importance.
One such casualty of my skewed logic rests in the fact that I have no pictures of Kameryn in her baptism dress on her baptism day. Nor any pictures of me with her from that day. A wound I am most likely never to forget.
So, let this be a lesson to me, never to place the trivial fluff of an event above the weightier meat of it.
However, one of the happy happenstances of my veritable event planning OCD is that I have a whole "photo shoot" of photos of Kameryn in her baptism dress taken prior to the day.
Of that I am blissfully grateful.
And this post is, at it's heart, an excuse and opportunity to assault you with pictures of the little girl I love more than anything in the entire world.
This picture was one of our favorites (hence the fact it's bigger than the rest) It accompanied the grandparents invites and a few others and was blown up to a larger size for me to keep. Grandma "Big House" (my mom) specifically requested this picture because it is one of the few we have that captures the true essence of joy that Kameryn is. Most of her other pictures, as you will soon see, offer her more "demure" belief of good picture taking etiquette.
She (Kameryn) was most partial to this picture with the coy smile and pearl necklace. Along with several other where she had tilted her head and placed her hands "just so" and looked very much like a girl prepared to get her portrait painted. She is ever much a lady at heart I believe.
This is one of my favorites simply because of the joy I take just from staring at her perfect little face.
My beautiful little girl.
This picture is the one that accompanied her invites and it makes me happy every time I see it. Brandon thought it was cheesy. So, if you agree with him, keep it to yourself. It makes me smile.
I have also attached her testimony which she wrote to be accompanied with her invites and we will end this post with that.
It is by far one of the things I will treasure most.
